Yeah the abandonment of Back In Town is such a tragedy

Everything you described is in a recent chyoa story I posted recently. It’s fantastic - legit one of the best bully stories ever. It’s incomplete, but the author adds new chapters very frequently. Here’s the link

https://chyoa.com/story/Back-In-Town.23557

This is seriously one of the best stories on all of chyoa, and one in the best in the genre. It’s a mind control story where the bully slowly corrupts everyone the main character cares about, with an emphasis on the mom of course, and sissifies the main character. It’s in progress, but the author updates very regularly.

https://chyoa.com/story/Back-In-Town.23557

jeez the entire forum is overrun with spam bots

I wasn't planning on commenting until I saw KingHK's terrible advice. If you feel this stuff is having a detrimental effect on your mental health - which is totally understandable btw, as this stuff can kinda lead down a fucked up, blackpilled road if you have a hard time separating your kink from the other aspects of your life - the solution is not to keep doing it and "associating it with bad thoughts" or some shit. That will only make you more depressed and isolated. The solution is to do your best to stop using this fetish of porn. Cold turkey if you can. Reconnect with friends. Try to make new friends (trust me, I know how hard it is to make new friends). See a therapist if you're able, and let them know how you're feeling. Hell, there are baby steps you can take!! I know from firsthand experience that reconnecting with friends or trying to go out and make new ones can be extremely daunting and taxing when battling anxiety and depression, I really do, but the key is to really get away from the triggering material. Maybe, next time you feel like settling down and reading some hardcore ntr story, just go play a video game instead, catch up on a Netflix show, anything to get you away from the triggering material..

For so many people in this fetish community, it can be hard to separate the humiliation kink from the rest of their lives. That's what leads to destructive advice like KingHK's. But when you're displaying serious signs of depression, the answer isn't "relax. just wallow in those bad feelings while you jack off" it's "do whatever you can to stop triggering that specific chemical reaction in your brain."

I think a big part of the reason that this fetish in particular (and other adjacent, related fetishes) have a hard time "turning it off" so to speak is that a huge component of the bully-ntr fetish is the humiliation of the feeling that we aren't good enough, that we aren't worth it. But it's just a dumb kink. You are valuable, you are worth it, and you owe it to yourself to have a better life.