Didn't think that in the past but now I agree that most are hypocrites... But I do also think that it's the society they live in that makes them that way. They have feelings too, they want, they lust, just like us. It's just that they need to hide it to protect the "honor" of their males.

You can hate them for this, personally, I pity them.

They are grown ups, they should be able to make their own choices.... good or bad. We shouldn't interfere with that.

Thats my opinion. Based from my own experience.

Karim

It's Ramadan since yesterday so I thought things would quiet down but see what the bastard sent me... don't know when it was taken.

He sent me this from nowhere... like he wants to hurt me. Silly fucker.

Sorry for my absence. Had to digest stuff.

My mom and my cousin have apparently been chatting on their phone.

Don't know how long, don't know what they're talking about. At first I didn't believe it but the asshole wanted to prove himself and forwarded me this one....

You notice my mom has no headscarf on and she had lipstick on. which is quite unusual.

panties I found on saturday morning... not sure why they are so dirty this time... hopefully not because of him.
if it is maybe we're gone too far and need a way out.

here's the update:

The guy was a bit late (can you believe it?)
He arrived with a red rose for my mom to thank her for the "delicious" cake she made last week. She obviously wasn't expecting this cause she blushed when he gave it to her.
To thank him she proposed to make another cake, with chocolate this time. he told her that it wasn't needed but she insisted.
He told her that if she was to spend time in the kitchen for us, we would help her make this cake.
She first refused but as he insisted, she finally agreed. She said she had to change clothes first before starting and she left us alone my cousin and me for a few minutes.
He told me that after we start this damn cake, I had to find an excuse to leave them alone for half an hour so he could be alone with her.
I told him that I didn't want too, that I didn't trust him as he could do something stupid and I'll end up in trouble much more than him as I was living here and not him...
He told me to shut up and do as I said... That I knew better than to make him angry.
My mom came back and we all headed to the kitchen.
We started that damn cake. I was responsible for melting the chocolate. My cousin was getting the stuff needed from the cupboards and my mom was handling the actual preparation.
After a few minute and a elbow kick from my dear cousin, I excused myself... "I had to go to the bathroom upstairs" and left them alone.
In reality I went to my room.
Wanted to spy on them but due to how our home is built it was very difficult without being noticed.
Went on the computer hoping that time would pass faster but it wasn't lol.
In the meantime heard some commotion in the kitchen and some laughter and giggling. Wanted to explose... if he messed up or talked too much, I'd be in serious trouble.

Went back down some 30 minutes after I left as was requested. When I entered the kitchen, there was flour everywhere and my cousin had some chocolate stains on his shirt lol. Think that was the reasons for the laughters... hopefully.

Once there, thinks suddenly become much quieter then what I was hearing from upstairs... My cousin had a little satisfied grin on his face. My mother was finishing her cake. it took a few minutes for the strange situation to go back to normal. my cousin proposed to clean the kitchen but my mom refused. We headed back to the living room with the cake and tea.

Suddenly my cousin had things to tell me lol. my mom was left out of the discussion and we talked about the virus, school and other uninteresting topics for some time. bastards almost finished the cake all by himself.

Was hoping that we'd get back to my room so I could ask him what happened when I wasn't there but we didn't. My dad gets back from work at around 20PM on fridays. At 19PM my cousin left.

last friday, when he visited, he shaked my moms hand when he arrived but hugged her when he left. That was so awkward cause we don't do that in my family. My mom was so stunned she didn't move for some time after that but didn't say a word.

This friday, he hugged her when he arrived and when he left as if had become a normal thing.

Its sunday and I still have no idea of what happened in the kitchen... don't dare ask my mom and she didn't talk about him since then. Hopefully my cousin will give me the details.

Other thing I want to know is if he has contacted her on her phone... he asked me for her phone number officially to thank her for her delicious cake last friday.... been watching my moms behavior since but didn't notice any strange activity related to her phone... and no I don't have her pin code.

can't wait for tomorrow, hope he'll be in a good mood.
 

Today feeling like shit...

I invited my bully home today so we officially could play some PS4... He should be here any minute, just got home from school, he had one more hour to spend there.

I'm anxious.... my mom said she would be making cookies for this event as I don't have a lot of friend visiting here.

Hope everything will go smoothly...

fingers crossed

I gave him the panties. Told him to bring them back tomorrow. Feeling anxious. Hate the grin he had on his face... like he won over me or something. I gave them because I decided to, not because he forced me.