I actually never know that I'm a cuck till this incident happened.
Just call me "Ule". I'm asian, 21 y.o from the East part of he world. Recently I masturbated almost everyday because of this.


When I'm in highschool, I know I'm not rich but I don't know that my dad actually have a large sum of debt. It came from loaning money for his small business.
One night, my dad is not coming home, and only the day after I know that our small store is gone because of fire. My dad looked like a wrecked when he came home after. He lost all his pride and confident. I can hear his sorrow cry almost every night. At that time I thought Dad is pathetic to not be able to provide me and our family. I know I'm such a jerk, but who like to be at poverty, really.

Almost a month after, my mom try to support my father by borrowing money from our relation & friend. But she didn't really get the sum we need to re-open store. Well at that time, there are world great reccession, and of course my country affected badly too. What a time to get accident really.

In short, our family didn't have source of income. He try to looking for a job, but he only got highschool certificate. Noone want to hire him at that time. Everything sucks, until one day, someone (who I actually respect and thought he was hero for our family) came to offer a helping hand. He's and old guy, maybe at his late 50s, that own a bread factory near the market where my Dad's store burnt. Lets just call him old guy. He said he will loan money with zero interest. Now I think about it, why would someone that barely acquintance want to loan you money with zero interest, is suspicious as f*ck. Not even one of my uncle/aunt willing to let us borrow money, but this guy? But at that time, I thought he was just one of a kind guy.

Everything actually turned 180 after we loan money and re-open our store. I even can finally buy Playstation 2 about 2 years after and I got accepted to private universities. My dad is back to his original self. All good I think.. till a week ago.

I came to the store, as usual to help my father to run business. I actually did this since I'm at junior high school. but that day is different. When my dad were going to our warehouse, and I tend the shop with my mom. Not long after, old guy came, saying he's got business around here and talk to my mom for a while. What I didn't expect to see is, when they talk, I saw from behind that this old guy put his hand into my mom breast, and grope/pinch her, I mean anything that make my mom by reflect, kick the glass storefront with her knee. I asked my mom what's wrong and she said there's cockroach. At that time, I believe her because our store located in wet market (traditional). Then, the things happened after was the one that got me doubt my mom. I saw clearly when the old guy walk off, he slap my mom ass / waist lightly, and chuckle smirkly. The scene after is my embarassed mom frozen at her place. We looked each other for a second, but then do our things. I don't know what to say and we didnt talk about it even after that.

But. I kept imagine things old guy do to my mom, and it made me so hard everytime. I almost mastubate everyday, and sometimes 2-3 times continously.
Please, I need help, I know its wrong but the delusion kept coming. I read lot of Mom NTR hentai / porn because of this.