Describe your experiences of humiliation, along with the 'culture of the times'.

I am generation z and I found out my mom was a slut when I was 12 .It was the summer and my family went out to my step father's little one room cabin for a little vacation. We went fishing and hiking it was pretty fun. One night I was reading before bed. I was the only one awake and eventually I got tired of reading so I turned off the lamp and tried to fall asleep. I tried to fall asleep for about 20 minutes to no avail. And then I started hearing noises. I heard a bed creaking a little bit, blankets rustling, and eventually moaning. It took me a little while but eventually I figured it out. My mother was masturbating. My heart started pumping faster , my stomach got queasy, and I started to sweat. I was hearing something I shouldn't. Hearing something a son should never hear. But even though I felt disgusted, my teenage body felt differently. I got an erection. Like a really hard one. It was throbbing quickly with my heartbeat. I tried to fight it but after a few minutes as my mother started moaning louder I knew there was only one way I would get rid of it. I slowly moved my hand, so as to not alert my mother that I was awake, and I started masturbating as well. Even then I was trying to fight it I would get close to cumming then my conscience would say "You are jerking off to your own mother, you can't do this!!!!". I did that a few times until eventually I just couldn't hold it anymore. My conscience was trying to butt in again , but it was too late. I started cumming. And it was one of the most powerful orgasm I had ever had. I had just started masturbating a few months before, and combined with the fact I hadn't jerked off those few days I had been on vacation, plus the fact I wasn't just watching porn I was in the same room as a woman fingering herself just made me go crazy. Even if it was my own mother. It was like a volcano. There was cum all over me, my shorts were soaked.  The orgasm felt great. I felt like I was floating for a few second. But as I came to the post nut clarity hit me like a freight train. Made all the worse by the fact my mother was not finished yet. I had to endure about another minute of my mom flicking her bean until with more regular and longer moans before she herself came. She went soundly to sleep after that while I quietly cried. I could not believe what had just happened. There was a lot of mixed emotions. The most overwhelming was shame at what I had just done. I had jerked off to my own mother. It made me sick The other emotion was a deep anger at my mother. I kept thinking what a stupid bitch she was. Doing what she did. She couldn't go out to the car and masturbate. Or control herself and not masturbate in the same room as her son. I was really angry. But there was another emotion. Eventually I started getting aroused again, and my erection came back. I jerked off two more times that night to the memory of my mother fingering herself before I was able to fall to sleep that night. I couldn't look my mother in the eyes for the rest of the trip. She probably has no memory of her masturbating that night, but it became one of the biggest moments of my life. It started me down the path of this fetish. Just because she was too selfish to have some self control. This was just the first step on my path down this fetish though. I will tell some more stories tomorrow. I have jerked off now and as I described before the post nut clarity is hitting pretty hard.

At about the age of 11, I roughly began to understand my mother's sexuality, it was the period of 2007-2012, I noticed how my friends of the same age were watching her, they did not say MILF in our country at that moment, it came a little later to our country with the development of the Internet in 2012, and it already caught on later, it began to be used very often. There were certain events that influenced this fetish, I tried to create a theme about real events Theme: A real story without sex, but it seems to me that they started to fantasize a little, I really don't mind it)

If we take the experience of humiliation, then friends tried to somehow contact my mom, plus there were a couple of cases in the judo section, there was a feeling that someone was trying to do something with your mom, and it was simultaneously with understanding her sexuality, for some reason I experienced a sense of shame, envy and excitement, a little later, at 16-18 years old, all my girls were like their mother, but the fetish for history and fantasy remained, but I treat it only as a fantasy

If we take that period, then again, these were times when there were a bunch of teenagers who were addicted to drugs, booze, a huge number of bullies in schools on the streets, I remember this period of time like this, a couple of times when my mom came to school, I saw how high school students looked at her Of course, I understood everything, and the feeling that these hooligans are bad guys, and they are now looking at your mother, perhaps they will discuss, conflicting feelings developed inside

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I'm very interested in reading about the humiliation experienced by the 'Silent generation' and the 'baby boomers'. Would love to read from 'generation x' also. Ill give my 'millenial' point of view eventually.