Ok, so to follow up on this.
I looked through the forum, and it seems centered around bullying and power imbalances, which i guess somewhat suits my current situation?. I'm currently 35 and i am having an illicit relationship with a younger man. He isn't a bully per se, more of a troubled youth. As a volunteer social worker, i help to guide young people to better paths. For him in particular, I understand from the people around me, and the friends of my child, that he comes from a broken family.
This is not his fault. I feel like he got dealt a bad hand in life, which is why, i tried to encourage him to leave bad influences around him, and continue his education. One thing led to another, and things got physical. I initially regretted it, due to age differences, and the imbalance of power, with my position and everything, but he cajoled me into meeting regularly.
I'm not sure what to do, since googling led to many condemnations and ethical and moral quandaries. Its hypocritical, posting here, but i feel its a last resort.
It's nice getting this out. Apologies if this is the wrong place to do so.