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Real Life / Re: How old are you now and when did you get into this fetish?
« on: February 18, 2023, 12:07:14 AM »
Probably 14 or 15. I'm 26 now. I had been watching and reading porn for a few years and had been getting into weirder and weirder stuff. By this point I pretty much only watched interracial porn. I was on holiday with my family (mum wasn't there) and had my own room. One night I was jerking off imagining a white girl in a BBC gangbang and suddenly, out of nowhere, the image in my head turned into my mum. I instantly felt incredibly turned on, humiliated and a bit sick all at the same time. I had one of the best jerk offs of my life and since then imagining my mum getting blacked has been pretty much my biggest fantasy..
Other factors I think is I was raised solo by my mum so she's a very big part of my life. I once found some condoms and a vibrator in her room which made me feel very confused and scared and horny all at once. Then there were multiple occasions where I would heard my step dad fucking her at night. Again, at first I found it really scary, and I found myself listening out for it every night - initially out of worry but before long I realised I wanted it to happen.
So yeah all my experience is a weird mix of fear, humiliation and horniness which eventually just became my biggest turn on lol
Other factors I think is I was raised solo by my mum so she's a very big part of my life. I once found some condoms and a vibrator in her room which made me feel very confused and scared and horny all at once. Then there were multiple occasions where I would heard my step dad fucking her at night. Again, at first I found it really scary, and I found myself listening out for it every night - initially out of worry but before long I realised I wanted it to happen.
So yeah all my experience is a weird mix of fear, humiliation and horniness which eventually just became my biggest turn on lol